Sometimes knowing too much can be really tough. I'm not referring to knowledge, but instead i mean information. There are some things in life which you can't say to another, only secrets kept between the people that already know. It gets even tougher when you realise that this causes problems for you, giving you more worries. So what would be a worse case scenario? Imagine a problem starts, you need help. But the people who you can look for ARE the people who ARE the problem?

Many times people ask me, why don't i share it with them? Much as i would like to, its not like its gonna be possible. I know this post is gonna keep me busy on msn for the next few days, but i guess i can finally say what i wanna say, at the same time not leak anything out. I guess we all have seen in some shows that alcohol "seemed" to keep matters off people's head for awhile, doesn't seem to work. All i felt was more horrible than what i felt at the beginning. Or maybe it was the mixing of the different drinks i had? I knew I felt a little "floaty" when i was on my way home. Thought i could give another bottle a shot, but in the end, my world went spinning away. Yes i knew what i was doing, but its just so difficult to forget things.

Some people say drown yourself in what you enjoy doing. For me i guess its gaming, decided to give it a shot. But in the end, all these thoughts in my head just kept popping up randomly. At this point of time, i can't really be bothered with anything. Its not like anything in my life is going smoothly anymore. They say, life has its ups and downs. But what happens when 80% of your life feels like its on the downs? Followed by which they say, count your blessings. But again, what happens if all the blessings all ends up with misfortune?